Will I ever be able to find my prince charming :(...?

I'm in a deep situation from what I would consider it to be. I'm so infatuated with a more than well-likely straight guy. What a surprise? Since I always fall for the straight ones. Plus, he's just in my own opinion way beyond too GORGEOUS to be gay (and I see him as beyond gorgeous, he just looks beautiful). I barely know him and he works at a GNC at the mall I go. Usually he's pretty friendly and always says Hi whenever he sees me ping the store, however I do feel as if it may just to be nice though He's done it though a few times outside the store when I've ped him down the mall so I suppose there's some interest but he looks just too incredibly good-looking to ever like me. Looks can become very intimidating to someone if you have you have a huge crush of if you feel as if you can't ever match to be their type. I just wish for once I can have the one that I truly desire. My one true love... :-( I want to find someone who can just love me and knowing that they feel the same way about me as I do of them and have my feelings for once reciprocated. I feel as if no guy that I fall for will never love me. It's very frustrating and heartbreaking and puts me up even right now to the verge of tears with everything I've ever had to go through and never having your feelings being able to be reciprocated. I'm not out and I don't enjoy being "gay/bi". I don't really go for that much for the clubs & bars since those aren't really my main interest. Plus, I don't believe I would find my type such as straight-acting (masculine) & muscular guys such as guy I have a crush on right now.